Here I am awake again, late at night. I’ve been thinking about when my days are good and when they are bad.
Today didn’t seem bad, at first. I was pretty lazy this morning. I got out of bed around 10. I didn’t get dressed until lunchtime. I played around on the internet most of the morning. Not productive, at all.
In typical human nature fashion, I felt I deserved to not do anything. I’ve been organizing and keeping the house picked up this week. I kept everyone fed and happy. So, I deserve to do whatever I want on a Saturday morning.
Well, fast-forward to Saturday afternoon. No laundry was done. The living room is filled with toys and the girls’ clothes that they changed out of. The dishes are piled up. Vera keeps finding all of the lotion and wants to put it in her hair. Joshua needs held all the time because his mouth hurts. Elena, well, she is just jumping off the walls.
Needless to say, I was greatly overwhelmed. I needed to have done the laundry this morning to make room for Joshua’s diapers. I needed to have done the dishes so that dinnertime would be quick and easy. I needed to be present with my kids so I could stay on top of their mischievousness.
How does this relate to devotion being important? Well. Most days, my goal is to wake up around 5:30am. Jamin is getting ready for work, all the kids are sleeping. This is when I can have my quiet time. Getting my bible reading in for the day helps me be reminded of my goals. I find encouragement in scripture and direction. I’m reminded that my work in the home is important. I am to be teaching our children good character, discipline and love. I can’t do those things when I let life fall into disarray. I need to be the example and my flesh hates it.
This doesn’t mean there is no place for rest and relaxation. However, chores need to come first. We can’t relax when there is chaos. We can’t relax when our children’s needs are not being met.
This also goes well with my women’s bible study I’m supposed to be doing. We’re studying the Pursuit of Holiness book. One of the chapters is on self discipline. It’s something I am severely lacking in. I can’t even keep up with the weekly homework. Not because I don’t have time, but because I waste my time. My biggest challenge in self discipline is getting to bed at a decent time. I have a goal of 10pm, but I’m finding even that isn’t early enough. I’m in this cycle that I’m having a problem breaking. I stay up late because I can’t get up early enough to do things I need to do without children around.Being honest, though, I don’t even get anything done because I don’t have the proper energy in the evening.
My goal for this year is to go to bed early so I will wake up early. Make my bible study a priority. Make the care of my household a priority. Through that, I will have better days. As a family we can enjoy the life we are given.